Missing You

I'm missing you,
Your whispers of love,
Your sweet kisses and hugs,
Your special touch and your smile.

I can't stop the tears,
I'm missing your presence,
You left a huge hole in my heart,
I feel so empty without you by my side.

My heart wants you to stay,
My brains says you have to go,
My heart wails and cries non-stop,
My brain saying it's the right thing to do.

I checked my mobile,
Awaiting you to text me,
Awaiting your calls to greet me,
But I realised you're miles away.

My heart sank,
My mood swings,
I miss kissing you,
I miss hugging you.

The morning kiss no more,
The smile on my face is taken away,
Everyday is the countdown of your return,
I'll be waiting here awaiting you to fill joy in me.

I am missing you,
I miss your everything,
I am missing your presence,
I miss you playing with my hair.

I miss you teasing me,
I miss you making my day,
I miss your laughter over my joke,
I miss your touch of every concern for me.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Questions

This next step,
Determines my next,
Where will I end up to be?
What will I end up to become?

I have been thinking,
But I'll never know for real,
My mind was swept in a total mess,
What should I do, Which step to take?

I am confused,
Lost in my thoughts,
I can't find my way back,
What is becoming of me?

Oh please help me,
I'm so confused, so lost,
I need your hand to guide,
I need your advice to survive.

What do I want?
What do I need?
What should I do?
Where should I go?

Please tell me,
Please teach me,
I need your help,
And will appreciate.

Guide me through this,
Tell me what's best for me,
What do I need to accomplish this?
How do I go about to accomplish them?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Friends

My dear,
You're still young,
Friends can come and go,
You'll stumble upon more ego.

Friends can come and go,
You'll survive on your own,
They stab you at the back,
You survived without a scratch.

What doesn't kill you,
Only makes you stronger,
You'll know more people on the go,
The backgrounds and attitude of a stranger.

You'll soon know who to trust,
Who to believe and who to rely on,
You'll know who to keep and who to dispose,
Most friends just happen to be for a purpose.

Fret not my dear,
Take a step at a time,
You'll move on and get over,
Your family is here for you anytime.

You're still young my dear,
Everything is going to be fine,
Stop and slow down to shake off that fear,
You know I'll still be here for you to lean on.

My doors wide open for you,
To welcome you in your comfort,
Fear not for the closing doors,
For one opens after another shuts.

Open your eyes and look around,
You might find a better friend to make,
Walk around with your head held high,
Shy not for I'm here with you forever it take.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts
-Dedicated to little 'bro' Hamdan

In you I find..

The sunshine making you glow,
It meant so much to be by your side,
This is a dream come true for me,
It means the whole world to be with you.

In you I found myself,
I find you guiding me somewhere,
Somewhere I deserve and should be,
You taught me to be stronger and better.

You found strenght in me,
You believed in my dreams,
And you plastered a smile on me,
In you I found pure happiness.

The sunrise shining through,
Brightening our future together,
I am convinced you are made for me,
I felt my best when we are together.

The sunset stealing the light,
You are protected me from harm,
You never left me to face these alone,
My hopes still as high as the sky above.

Just you and me alone,
Facing life's battle together,
Hand in hand we face this war,
You and me are partners in mission.

In you I found strenght,
In you I found my future,
In you I found confidence,
In you I found my best self.

You made me your best,
You bring sense into me,
You shake the fear off me,
You bring me out to my very best.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Just You

You and me,
Hand in hand,
Alone and happy,
Walking on this land.

Just you and me,
Enjoying the sea breeze,
Breathing in the fresh air,
Oh I wish I could stop the time.

Alone with you,
My worries gone,
My problems solved,
I feel so safe and secure.

Your kiss,
My lifeline,
Your hug,
My assurance.

All I want is you,
All I need is you,
All I can give is love,
All I can give is my all.

Just you are all I want,
For you are my everything,
I feel your soul within mine,
I feel the deepest desire for you.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Sleepless Nights

Cars zooming,
Racing at the highway,
Everyone sound asleep,
And I am so wide awake.

My mind active,
Thinking of many things,
Things to do and need to be done,
While others asleep I kept myself busy.

Random thoughts,
Making out reasons,
Why people keep habits,
And why others kick them.

People sound asleep,
Snoring and dreaming away,
I kept myself busy writing,
Writing my thoughts away.

It's morning,
I smell the air,
Closing my eyes,
This is life.

Fresh air,
Filling up the room,
Peaceful and quiet,
Time simply stood still.

This is life,
Just me and him,
Cuddling each other,
So safe and sound.

Bloody Victory

So bloody today,
Blood trickling down,
Sick to the stomach each day,
Blood oozing out your deep cut.

Blood smearing,
The red spreading,
The blood covered cloth,
The smell that turn your stomach.

Seeing blood,
Is nothing new,
It's like a lightning,
Very so frightening.

The sight of blood,
Sometimes do make me smile,
The sight of blood oozing out the foe,
The sign of a very bloody victory for me.

I smell your blood,
I suck in your blood,
I smile at your defeat,
I laughed at your death.

You have had your share,
You put salt into my wound,
You enjoyed torturing me,
But you lost for I never felt the pain.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

My Niece, Siti Nadiah

My niece is eight today,
The cheerful bubbly girl,
Always full of laughter and joy,
Makes me feel like a young girl.

Those time full of curiousity,
Those times when I cradle her,
Watching her sleep in my arms,
Watching her throw tantrums in the air.

She has her good points,
On demand for answers,
Full of innocent questions,
That sometimes drives you insane.

She is my niece,
A lovely one indeed,
Born today eight years ago,
Outgrowing fast and on the go.

I make sure she learned,
I wanted the best out of her,
I sometimes try too hard,
Maybe just too hard for her.

I want her to know,
I loved her from the start,
I will always keep a lookout for her,
To protect her should any harm befalls.

This is specially for you,
My niece the hidden gem,
I know you'd outshine one day,
And I believe in your dreams.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts
-Dedicated to Siti Nadiah Samsul

Everything

The smell of fresh air,
The breath-taking scenery
The melodious birds chirping,
The taste of delicious home-made meal.

The redness from the sun,
The blueness from the sky,
The greeneries from the garden,
The pure whiteness from the snow.

The dreams I have,
The reality that bites,
The pleasures I enjoy,
The torture I have endured.

The differences we had,
The similarities we shared,
The distance and time lived apart,
The friction rubbing against so hard.

The smiles you give,
The joy you provide,
The shoulder you cried on,
The lips that kiss you better.

Everything in this world,
Everything that matters to me,
Every second I can spare for you,
Every day I dedicate my life to you.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Today

Today is lovely,
Thanks for everything,
You made it possible for me,
I have to say thanks for everything!

The food is tasty,
Had stuffed my face,
We went for coffee and pastry,
And had a long nice chat and scored the ace!

You make it happen,
You made my day everyday,
I will continue to let this love burn,
For every minute, every hour, everyday!

I'm looking forward for more,
Today is always better than yesterday,
You made sure of all this things and more,
I just hope I can spend every single day with you!

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Known you for what?

Known you for what?
7 years, for what?
You avoided me,
You never said hi!

Known you for what?
Call me and I'll be there,
But You are always too busy,
To even come over and say hi!

Known you for what?
You never appreciate!
You create excuses,
To avoid being with me!

Known you for what?
I'm not made for your use!
I'm not for you to vent on!
You are a friend but a foe inside!

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts
-Espeacially dedicated for one person only*
*You should know yourself

Raindrops

Raindrops trickling,
Down my window pane,
The rain smelled so inviting,
I have freed this throbbing pain.

This pain I endure,
It never hurt anymore,
I can't feel anymore torture,
I don't know what's pain anymore.

I smiled at my tears,
I laughed at my scars
I am happy for all these,
For I know I'm learning; I am alive.

I smiled when I fall,
I laughed at my injuries,
I am happy that I got up,
For I know I can still run and play.

The wind against me,
I fought through that fine,
Droplets of rain falling on me,
I got through that, and I'm so fine.

I am at home now,
So warm and safe in bed,
The rain watering the ground,
The wind making the temperature dip.

The storm can't get me,
I have shelter above my head,
I have been stronger and bolder,
I know I am better and always ahead.

The sound of rain drops,
Above my roof like musicals,
Sounds so peaceful and beautiful,
It's no longer a storm but great weather.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

What should I do?

My head pounding,
My mind blowing up,
I can't stand this making,
I feel like giving everything up!

But I can't give up,
I can't lose the battle,
I'm not allowed to even win,
What should I do?

My eyes are closing,
I can't force it open,
I'm going to sleep,
A deep sleep that never ends.

I never want to wake up,
The alarm to loud,
It shook me off the bed,
I don't wanna wake up.

I can't stand,
I can't sit either.
I can't breathe,
I can't stop either.

I'm lost,
Who am I?
What should I do?
Where am I going?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

He and Me

It's finally here,
The way I dreamt it,
He was standing there,
And me hugging him tight!

The first few minutes,
Hugging and kissing...
Admiring every moment,
Exchanging sweet-nothings.

His lips on mine,
His arms around me,
His eyes looking at me,
Just a reminder of my love.

That kiss,
That touch,
That look in his eyes,
Melted my heart away.

Oh, is this truly the one,
The one I've been searching,
The man I've been looking for,
Will he give me unconditional love?

Is this real?
Is this a dream?
Is he truly the one?
Am I the one for him?

Is this a game of love?
Is this another fairytale story?
Are we destined to be together?
Will we be living happily ever after?

If birth ends with death,
Will life experience be useful?
If fate bring us together,
Will destiny let us stay together?

If some things are best unknown,
I choose not to know my future.
For if my future is doomed,
I'd choose to death over life...

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

In Love

It's such an experience,
To fall so deeply in love,
To hear that melodious voice,
To be told that I'm loved.

Oh, such a nice day,
That begins with love,
Oh, such a beautiful day,
To think of someone you love.

It's such a masterpiece,
Never seen anything better,
It's so perfect sealed with love,
Never felt so much love before.

Oh, such a great feeling,
That starts with that touch,
Oh, such a wonderful feeling,
You hugging me on the couch.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Stop..

The silence in the room,
Deafened me in my room,
The brightness from the sun,
Blinded me from the start of the fun.

I braved the dark,
That feared me on the mark,
I lost the treasure,
That I had in pleasure.

The excitement is getting to me,
The high hopes sets me flying,
The plunging disappointment,
The pain from all the falling.

Stop saving me,
From this death,
Stop my breath,
From staying alive.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

I'm myself, be yourself!

If I made some changes,
Will it make any difference?
Will anyone at least cared that I did?

No.. No.. NO...
No one cared...
No one will remember!

If I walked that extra mile,
Will it really make an impact?
Will anyone at least see my deed?

No..No.. NO!!
No one sees the good,
At least not from me...

If I tried to be good,
Will anyone say something?
Will anyone notice that change?

No.. No.. NO!!
No one had done that,
And no one will ever do that!

I am who I am,
Take it or leave it!
I won't change for anyone!

No one took notice of my attempt,
No one cared if I had tried my best,
No one stood by me when I failed..!

I will be the way I am,
I love being myself.
So be it- Take it or leave it!

No one can make me,
No one can force me into things,
No one can control what I want in life.

I will be here where I am,
Standing tall and proud for who I am,
I'll welcome anyone who wanna join me.

Join me,
Stand up,
Don't give up!

Try harder,
Be your best,
Be yourself!

Don't be afraid,
Tell them off,
You are you so be it!

I am myself,
And I'm loving it,
I love being myself..

So join me,
Get your own identity,
Don't change just be yourself!

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Answer my Questions

You are late,
I can't stand it!
What's your excuse?
Are you telling the truth?

You made me wait,
I can't bear any longer!
Tell me why you're doing this!
Are you really telling me the truth?

You lied to me!
What are you thinking?
Why did you do this to me?
Am I really asking for too much?

You said you loved me!
Do you really love me?
Is there any other motives?
Then why are you hurting me?

You said you didn't mean it,
But you did just that again!
What's your excuse this time?
That I made you do that?

You are killing me.
What did I do to you?
To deserve this treatment,
So bad, so painful to undertake..

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

A Treasure

It seems so long,
Seems like centuries,
I can't bear any longer,
This distance between us...

It hurts to be apart,
Seems like worlds apart,
Please don't leave me agian,
I can't bid you another goodbye...

It hurts me so deep,
You sliced my heart open,
I can't take the pain any more,
Please don't torture me any longer...

It seems too unbearable,
Seems like death is easier,
I can't wait and bear this pain,
Please give me your healing hand...

It took longer this time,
Seconds ticked slower this time,
Minutes passed at a rate of an hour,
The hour seemed like many days this time.

It took days that took a month,
Took a month that felt like years,
I have never felt like this before,
What have you done to me this time?

It is so perfect this time,
I missed you like never before,
All I want to do is be with you,
All I need to live is You by my side.

It is so beautiful,
This relationship,
So special and precious,
A treasure I'll keep till the end.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

You

You stole my heart of gold,
But, You gave me yours full of treasure.
You stole my precious moments,
But, You gave me your beautiful life in return.

You stole my loneliness,
And gave me joy noone can give.
You stole the problems in my mind,
And gave me hopes I can never get.

You took away the pain,
And gave me your healing touch.
You took away my worries,
And gave me a sense of victory.

You took away my mind,
But never get out of my head.
You took away my insecurities,
But never let me out of your sight.

I could've been the worst,
But, You made me your best.
I could've been lost somewhere,
But, You guide me to heaven.

I wouldn't have made it,
But, You made it happen.
I wouldn't be where I am,
But, You brought me here.

You did so much,
I couldn't say enough.
You can have me forever,
I am all yours till eternity.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Inside of Nowhere

Behind two gates,
In this four walls,
Has a huge "bed",
With concrete floor.

I meet many strangers,
From different backgrounds,
That became friends, sisters,
Mothers, childrens and many more.

We exchanged stories,
We promised to keep in touch,
But when one got released,
All of that became a thing of the past.

We have our own problems,
Protected by our own family,
I broke my promise so do many,
I don't want my status to be known.

I'm afraid of judgement,
Afraid to be seen by many,
With all the people I've got,
From inside of nowhere.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Friendship

Is a frienship
A treasure?
If I'm on a sinking ship,
Will a friend save me?

How do I know,
A friend is a good friend?
How do I assure,
She won't stab me at the back?

Is she a friend,
If she compliments me?
Is she a friend,
If she treats me?

How do I know,
If she is a friend,
I can rely on,
At bad times?

Is a friendship,
Really worth keeping,
To save memories of joy,
And those in tears as well?

Can I throw friends,
Like how I throw my dolls?
For I never knew if I know them,
For they never tell me if I am a friend.

Am I a friend,
Worth keeping?
Am I a friend,
Worth knowing?

I don't know,
Noone tells me,
If I am a friend,
If I am worth keeping.

Am I a friend to you?
Or am I just somebody?
Am I a friend you rely on?
Or are you playing with my feelings?

I gave you time,
I gave you advice,
I gave you my best,
But you never tell me.

Am I your friend?
Tell me.
I need to know.
Am I worth to be your friend?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

I forgot

I forgot the day today,
I forgot the date today,
I forgot the duties today,
I forgot the deadline is today.

I forgot who I am today,
I forgot who I love today,
I forgot who loves me today,
I forgot who my family were today.

I forgot where I am today,
I forgot where I belong today,
I forgot where I've been today,
I forgot where I've got to go today.

I forgot who I am today,
I forgot who you are today,
I forgot who my friends are today,
I forgot who truly loves me today.

I forgot how to read today,
I forgot how to write today,
I forgot how to speak today,
I forgot how to listen today.

I forgot who loves me not today,
I forgot who my enemies are today,
I forgot who I am to be aware of today,
I forgot who to say I love you to today.

Have I told you or have I forgotten?
Have I said how much you mean to me?
Have I listen to what you have to say today?
Have I told you what I have to tell you today?

If I haven't,
I'm sorry,
Maybe I forgot,
Will you forgive me?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

If

If I ever did disagree with you,
That's just to remind you,
I am not you and that I am different,
The reason why you chose me.

If I ever question your love,
That's just to remind you,
I need your love all the time,
The reason why I'm with you.

If I ever walked away,
Please stop me,
I needed your hug,
To assure me you love me.

If I ever couldn't make it,
To be where you needed me,
I might be in trouble,
And needed you more.

If I ever forgot to say,
How much you mean to me,
And that I love you,
Please don't doubt that I still do.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

In a LIBRARY

In the library,
Thought to be quiet,
But it's full of noise,
Why?

In the library,
You should fine peace,
But full of quarrels,
Why?

Not a bunch of small kids,
But teenagers and young adults,
Don't they know it's a library?
Why the noise?

Aren't they taught to off their mobiles,
Or the very least silence it when in a library?
Aren't they educated in such field?
Why so much noise in a library?

Shouldn't it be where you read,
And talk softly to friends?
Why isn't they a single person,
Asking them to lower the volume?

Isn't a library where,
You can find quiet time,
Alone or where you study?
Why not this library?

Am I in the wrong place?
Am I not in a library?
No, I'm not..
I am in a library...

Why is the library,
Full of barbarians,
Making so much noise,
In a F%$*ing Library????

WHY????!!!!

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

If Only...

If I could have my wish,
And have a pair of wings,
I'd spread them and run,
To fly and land on your laps.

If I could have what I want,
Then I would have you,
All to myself and utterly to myself,
Then I would be yours forever more.

If I could fly to the sky,
And beyond the clouds,
I would grab the mighty star,
To brighten up your day.

If I could silence everyone,
And have that moment,
I'd share it with you,
And have the world to ourselves.

If I have the last minute,
To be with you,
I'd tell you over and over,
That I love you and only you.

Look into my eyes,
Tell me once more,
Do you see the greatest love,
In the whole world?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

My Colours

If I say I'm feeling blue,
Does it mean I'm sad?
If I say I'm feeling green,
Does it mean I'm jealous?

If I say I'm feeling red,
Does it says I'm angry?
If I say I'm feeling black,
Does it says I'm switched off?

I don't see my moods,
With colour anymore,
These colours are mismatched;
For to me it mean different..

Blue is Peace,
Green is Fresh,
Red is Inviting,
Black is Everything.

Try mix all the colours,
It gets darker with every
Additional colour added,
All colours mix together makes black.

So tell me now,
Does blue still mean sad?
Does green still sound jealous?
Does black means you're in darkness?

Colours are beautiful,
I'll show you.
Black is everything
White is nothing.

My mood today?
It's Black and Blue
Got everything in peace
That's what I'm saying.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

If you're gone

If you are gone,
I shall not shed a tear;
For a smile you'd rather,
I shall give my best smile ever!

You are my everything;
The reason why I'm breathing,
But I shall move on,
For that you'd prefer.

No doubt, it is gonna be hard,
So hard, I wished it was me.
I don't know who I am no more;
I'm numb to everything now.

I'm afraid, I'm fearful
I thought I won't make it;
I just couldn't imagine,
Life without you came true.

Tears filled my eyes,
I want to burst and cry.
I felt you hugging me,
So tight but invisible.

Your face no longer greet mine,
Your body no longer against mine,
I couldn't hear your heavy breathing,
I turned, You're not there...

I wish it was me,
Instead of you;
I wish I'm dead,
To join you.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Music

How bad can it be
To be left outside alone?
Like how Anastasia sang
Her records to the radio.

How bad can it be
When in the end it doesn't matter?
Like how LinkinPark sang
In one of their albums.

How bad can it be
If I ain't got you?
Like Alicia keys sang
Her song away.

Songs that seemed
To read your mind
But do they really know
How it really feels?

So terrible,
So lonely,
Not in the mood
Not in this world.

I'm nowhere
I'm on air
I'm going nowhere
As I've got no air.

No air to breathe
No more oxygen left
No more life in my body
Only a soul seeking another.

Song after another
Accompanying my feelings
Lifting my spirit
Bit by bit to a beat.

Music of my life
So much influence
Yet staying true
To my own self.

I wanna sing
But i have no voice
I wanna learn
But i have no one.

I wanna dance
But i can't keep up
I wanna learn
But I have no time.

Music of my life
No singing
No dancing
Just listen...

Listen to that beat
Listen to that rhythm
Follow the beat
Of every rhythm

Sing to your own tune
Dance to your own feel
Join me in my world
And listen to my music.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Second Chance

My wish has been granted
I am given a second chance
My prayers answered
I will surely change.

I've promised to
A promise
I never want to break
A chance I'll never miss

I'll follow all rules
I'll never break a regulation
I promise I'll be good
And will always be as now

I'll keep my nose clean
I'll make it shine all year
I'll never be bad no more
I'll make it to santa's list this year

I'm appreciating the freedom
The freedom i once took for granted
Always better now than before
Better little than never at all

I'm earning the trust
I'm earning the respect
Give me time
I'll prove you I can

I deserve my education
I deserve to be better
I thank you for believing
I thank you for giving me a chance

I've learnt the harder way
I've cope with all waves
I'm still standing here
With all the love I have

I will never repeat
The mistake I once did
I've learnt I really have
The mistake I won't do again.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Me

I was afraid yet tough
I was confused yet collected
I was full of fear yet full of terror
I was forced to make up my stories.

I tell people my life
A life I so wanted
I made it sounded true
For all I know, it never did exist.

I know I had a future
A future that was crushed
In a moment of influence
For that I hate myself so much.

I am not a perfect person
I made a lot of mistakes
From most I have yet to learn
For I never knew what it really mean.

Learn from your mistake,That is
But noone ever taught me how
I couldn't even identify my mistake
What more to learn from them.

I grew up now I know so much
I have to accept that I'm no perfect person
But full of mistakes to be learnt
Nothing wrong is doing them, Just keep learning.

I'm given a second chance
Now and for all
I wanted to prove I can
And I am doing now

I've got everything coming
I've got nothing to lose
I'll never screw up this time
Never in this period.

I'm going to make mama proud
I'm going to make daddy happy
I'm going to make up for everything
For everything is what I've got.

I'm going to make amends
I'm going to walk across that desert
I'm going to swim across that ocean
I'm going to be the best anyone can have.

Look at me, folks.
I can be your number one
I can be the best
And I believe so.

Believe me, folks
Trust me on this
I shall never take
This chance for granted ever

Thank you, lord
For giving me this chance
This opportunity so great
I can never repay.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Changes

I watched silently,
The everchanging clouds
As the sunsets peacefully,
The orange filled the sky

As time pass,
Orange changes
To a darker shade
And turned to purple.

The sky got darker,
But the sun brings out the moon
To shower the Earth with moonlight
To let the skies have skyful of twinkles

I sat down by the waves,
Awaiting for sunrise after the sunset
Awaiting for time to change its course
For day become night and night awaits day.

Everything changes..
You, Me, Everyone...
With no time to waste
For time waits for no man

I keep saying,
I got to go,
Yet I stayed
For you to bid goodbye

A goodbye so long
A farewell to hard to say
I can't let go
Someone like you

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Life BooK

Wind blowing the pages,
The pages of my life,
Open and left to be read,
Read and you'll know.

You'll know every word,
Is the truth from my heart,
My heart with broken pieces,
Broken all the time but fixed once.

That one fix that made me,
So different but the same.
The same attitude, the same me,
But with a purpose to be claimed.

My book of life
Not many pages
Yet so important
Please read and you'll know.

Pass the book around
Let people write about you
From a different perspective
From a different view of someone.

That book will have more pages,
All about you, me and everyone.
You'll know you more than anyone
And you'll know everyone plays a part.

Life is unfair as it had always been
Your existence based on two person
Without one you're nobody alive
Be grateful for your own like noone would

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Someone I know

A cry for silence,
A silence of revenge
A revenge over myself
To a friend I called foe.

A foe I had once called a friend
Who had tested my patience,
Who got over the thin line
Who had me raging in anger

The anger that was over jealousy
The jealousy that tore our friendship apart
The friendship with no trust
The friendship with no joy for each other.

I cry in a moment of silence,
I got stabbed at my back
I turned to see that face of yours
So full of satisfaction with no regrets.

I couldn't believe my eyes,
A friend became a foe.
In a matter of time,
Just because of jealousy.

I am now no more
But memories haunted you
Every night, you can't breathe
You can't sleep in peace no more.

Sorry to have done that
But I wasn't the one
With decisions of your life
You made a choice to kill me.

The tear in your eyes,
The fear in your soul,
Find forgiveness my friend,
For your peace lies within.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

4 walls, 2 gates

4 walls that sees and hears,
The stories of histories,
Stories of heroism,
And stories of love.

I'm lost in this 4 walls,
With 2 gates of no escape
I sat by the corner
Awaiting myself to be called.

I have no name no more,
I am a number, a something,
I have no choice, no opinions,
I follow all rules that makes no sense.

Keeping my head lowered
With eyes on the ground
No voice of expressions
I move with limited permission
Of a complete stranger.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Our WorlD

We came from different world,
We are of different race,
Of different colour, different religion,
Yet we met by destiny and by fate.

We made a world of our own,
Neither to be called mine nor yours,
But ours and ours alone
Proud of each other forever.

A place we create
Where friendship kindles with love
Where love continue to grow
With no boundaries in between us.

I love you for you,
Not your money,
Not your status,
But you for who you are.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Me To You

If today is my last
and tomorrow is never,
I would join you in bed,
To hug and kiss you better.

I would admire your smile,
And see your every move,
To smile and laugh with you,
And say the best I Love you .

I would tell you,
How much you mean to me
I want you to know
that you are my everything

I would tell you,
How much I appreciate
Those little things you gave
And those gestures done by you for me.

If I am granted more time,
I would show you everything
That you never knew about me
And tell you my deepest secret ever.

I would do anything for you,
Even more than you'd expect me to,
And I'd show you in everyway, every second,
That You're truly everything to me...

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Forgive me

Overwhelmed with fuming anger
Pissed with all the bad luck I've got
Cursed by someone out there
But why me? Why am i in such a fate tonight?
My share of bad luck is too big a bite for me...

Forgive my sins, oh lord...
Please, I begged of you...
Stop torturing me like this..
I can't take it anymore!

Oh, darling...
Make my day..
Help me forget the worries
Help me forgo all the problems
Allow me to scream my insecurities away...

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Child Abuse

How have a little child wronged you
That you touched her wrong and
Beat him hard with powerful blows?

The children is your blood and flesh!
How can you have the heart to hurt
Them more than what they could handle?

What kind of a person are you
To not spare your children's life
After her crying and his pleas?

All he wants is attention
All she wants is your love
Is it really too much to ask??

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Your pain, my joy.

My blood is boiling inside,
I'm going to erupt real soon,
The hot steam finding a way out.

I felt my hand lifting up,
Awaiting a victim to punch,
To let go of a powerful blow.

My face turning red,
I might be small and quiet,
But never too tiny to express.

The fear that enveloped you,
Is the first step to my victory,
The blood dripping from your mouth,
Is never the pain but my fullest satisfaction.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Me and You

I've been waiting for you,
A deep desire to be yours,
I surrender to your every need,
I'm thristy for more of your touch.

Your body against mine,
Your lips tickling my ears,
Feeling your heart beat fast,
Feeling your soul searching mine.

My body entangled in yours,
Feeling the body heat from you,
My legs hugging you close and tight,
I have the urge to be even closer to you.

I can't seem to get enough,
I don't seem to have enough,
I wanted more that what I have,
You and me alone in a world I have.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Love

Love is pure,
Love is great,
Love is sweet,
Love is heaven.

Love gives you joy,
Love gives you life,
Love gives you hope,
Love gives you the best.

Love from a Mother,
You can get it as a child,
You will pass the love on,
To all the children you bear.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

My Life

My life is a Materpiece,
Like any other art piece,
Every stroke of the brush,
Makes the little bit of difference.

Every step I take,
Determine where I land,
A matter of choice,
That confirms my destiny.

If my dad is a little richer,
He wouldnt have taken mother,
Then I wouldnt have been born,
Neither would I be where I am now.

If I hadn't been through rough times,
I wouldn't have appreciated the good times,
If I hadn't been through tough times,
I wouldn't have appreciate the little things.

My life changed,
I have fallen, got up, and ran.
If I hadn't got up and run,
I wouldn't have met you.

Life is like a chain of reactions,
One missing link replaced by the other,
The other which will make you someone else,
The someone you never knew and will never in this life.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Friends or Foe?

Friends or foe?
How do you really know?
Do they really care for you?
Or are they just making use of you?

Friends keep an eye on you,
Knowing your strengths and weakness,
A foe, they hate you
Would they care to know?

I have friends who became my foe,
I cried in silence once
But never anymore
Friends are just foes undercover.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Introduction

Hi, this would be my second blog... This one is dedicated for my creations like poetry, short stories and such.

I just hope to have something that i can call my own... Hope you guys can enjoy yourselves reading my work.

Most welcome to add some comments to any of my works.

Peace Out...