Raindrops

Raindrops trickling,
Down my window pane,
The rain smelled so inviting,
I have freed this throbbing pain.

This pain I endure,
It never hurt anymore,
I can't feel anymore torture,
I don't know what's pain anymore.

I smiled at my tears,
I laughed at my scars
I am happy for all these,
For I know I'm learning; I am alive.

I smiled when I fall,
I laughed at my injuries,
I am happy that I got up,
For I know I can still run and play.

The wind against me,
I fought through that fine,
Droplets of rain falling on me,
I got through that, and I'm so fine.

I am at home now,
So warm and safe in bed,
The rain watering the ground,
The wind making the temperature dip.

The storm can't get me,
I have shelter above my head,
I have been stronger and bolder,
I know I am better and always ahead.

The sound of rain drops,
Above my roof like musicals,
Sounds so peaceful and beautiful,
It's no longer a storm but great weather.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

What should I do?

My head pounding,
My mind blowing up,
I can't stand this making,
I feel like giving everything up!

But I can't give up,
I can't lose the battle,
I'm not allowed to even win,
What should I do?

My eyes are closing,
I can't force it open,
I'm going to sleep,
A deep sleep that never ends.

I never want to wake up,
The alarm to loud,
It shook me off the bed,
I don't wanna wake up.

I can't stand,
I can't sit either.
I can't breathe,
I can't stop either.

I'm lost,
Who am I?
What should I do?
Where am I going?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

He and Me

It's finally here,
The way I dreamt it,
He was standing there,
And me hugging him tight!

The first few minutes,
Hugging and kissing...
Admiring every moment,
Exchanging sweet-nothings.

His lips on mine,
His arms around me,
His eyes looking at me,
Just a reminder of my love.

That kiss,
That touch,
That look in his eyes,
Melted my heart away.

Oh, is this truly the one,
The one I've been searching,
The man I've been looking for,
Will he give me unconditional love?

Is this real?
Is this a dream?
Is he truly the one?
Am I the one for him?

Is this a game of love?
Is this another fairytale story?
Are we destined to be together?
Will we be living happily ever after?

If birth ends with death,
Will life experience be useful?
If fate bring us together,
Will destiny let us stay together?

If some things are best unknown,
I choose not to know my future.
For if my future is doomed,
I'd choose to death over life...

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

In Love

It's such an experience,
To fall so deeply in love,
To hear that melodious voice,
To be told that I'm loved.

Oh, such a nice day,
That begins with love,
Oh, such a beautiful day,
To think of someone you love.

It's such a masterpiece,
Never seen anything better,
It's so perfect sealed with love,
Never felt so much love before.

Oh, such a great feeling,
That starts with that touch,
Oh, such a wonderful feeling,
You hugging me on the couch.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Stop..

The silence in the room,
Deafened me in my room,
The brightness from the sun,
Blinded me from the start of the fun.

I braved the dark,
That feared me on the mark,
I lost the treasure,
That I had in pleasure.

The excitement is getting to me,
The high hopes sets me flying,
The plunging disappointment,
The pain from all the falling.

Stop saving me,
From this death,
Stop my breath,
From staying alive.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

I'm myself, be yourself!

If I made some changes,
Will it make any difference?
Will anyone at least cared that I did?

No.. No.. NO...
No one cared...
No one will remember!

If I walked that extra mile,
Will it really make an impact?
Will anyone at least see my deed?

No..No.. NO!!
No one sees the good,
At least not from me...

If I tried to be good,
Will anyone say something?
Will anyone notice that change?

No.. No.. NO!!
No one had done that,
And no one will ever do that!

I am who I am,
Take it or leave it!
I won't change for anyone!

No one took notice of my attempt,
No one cared if I had tried my best,
No one stood by me when I failed..!

I will be the way I am,
I love being myself.
So be it- Take it or leave it!

No one can make me,
No one can force me into things,
No one can control what I want in life.

I will be here where I am,
Standing tall and proud for who I am,
I'll welcome anyone who wanna join me.

Join me,
Stand up,
Don't give up!

Try harder,
Be your best,
Be yourself!

Don't be afraid,
Tell them off,
You are you so be it!

I am myself,
And I'm loving it,
I love being myself..

So join me,
Get your own identity,
Don't change just be yourself!

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Answer my Questions

You are late,
I can't stand it!
What's your excuse?
Are you telling the truth?

You made me wait,
I can't bear any longer!
Tell me why you're doing this!
Are you really telling me the truth?

You lied to me!
What are you thinking?
Why did you do this to me?
Am I really asking for too much?

You said you loved me!
Do you really love me?
Is there any other motives?
Then why are you hurting me?

You said you didn't mean it,
But you did just that again!
What's your excuse this time?
That I made you do that?

You are killing me.
What did I do to you?
To deserve this treatment,
So bad, so painful to undertake..

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts