Finding Love

Whilst I've found some, I lost many through the journey...

I know not what is bound to happen, how or when it'll come....

Perhaps I am holding on too tightly on the past that has been residing...

And perhaps that's the reason why I've been in this pathetic state of mind....

Not knowing what love is or what it means,

Not knowing how love would feel like or how it should be,

Clueless with how it would be to be with someone who loves me,

Clueless with how I should react when I feel the absence of love in me.

I need the light to shine on to the path I'm taking,

Sadly, the more i desire for the light, the darker my path is,

I need the littlest love to envelope my cold heart,

Unfortunately, the harder I try, the more hate fills up my soul.

I know not why hatred became part of me,

I know not when I'll start loving completely again,

I wondered if there's someone like me who'd know,

The way to treat me right and to set some love in my heart....

Where are thou, soulmate?

Why haven't you saved me?

How do you look like in reality?

Tell me dear one, will you come?


-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Unexpected

Never did I expect,
To meet you tonight,
With much boredom,
I thought I'd just pass my time.

Little did I know,
I'd be having much fun,
Watching you smile and joke,
It seemed like we're meant to be.

As time passes,
It seemed to me,
Like I've always known you,
Deep down I know I had fun.

Today as I rode home,
I wondered if you'd remember,
This day we spent together not alone,
With friends who seemed to know better.

I wondered now as I lay on bed,
If you'd be thinking of me in your dreams,
Like how I am thinking of you as I type,
As I wondered along my phone rang and it read your name.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts