My Colours

If I say I'm feeling blue,
Does it mean I'm sad?
If I say I'm feeling green,
Does it mean I'm jealous?

If I say I'm feeling red,
Does it says I'm angry?
If I say I'm feeling black,
Does it says I'm switched off?

I don't see my moods,
With colour anymore,
These colours are mismatched;
For to me it mean different..

Blue is Peace,
Green is Fresh,
Red is Inviting,
Black is Everything.

Try mix all the colours,
It gets darker with every
Additional colour added,
All colours mix together makes black.

So tell me now,
Does blue still mean sad?
Does green still sound jealous?
Does black means you're in darkness?

Colours are beautiful,
I'll show you.
Black is everything
White is nothing.

My mood today?
It's Black and Blue
Got everything in peace
That's what I'm saying.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

If you're gone

If you are gone,
I shall not shed a tear;
For a smile you'd rather,
I shall give my best smile ever!

You are my everything;
The reason why I'm breathing,
But I shall move on,
For that you'd prefer.

No doubt, it is gonna be hard,
So hard, I wished it was me.
I don't know who I am no more;
I'm numb to everything now.

I'm afraid, I'm fearful
I thought I won't make it;
I just couldn't imagine,
Life without you came true.

Tears filled my eyes,
I want to burst and cry.
I felt you hugging me,
So tight but invisible.

Your face no longer greet mine,
Your body no longer against mine,
I couldn't hear your heavy breathing,
I turned, You're not there...

I wish it was me,
Instead of you;
I wish I'm dead,
To join you.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Music

How bad can it be
To be left outside alone?
Like how Anastasia sang
Her records to the radio.

How bad can it be
When in the end it doesn't matter?
Like how LinkinPark sang
In one of their albums.

How bad can it be
If I ain't got you?
Like Alicia keys sang
Her song away.

Songs that seemed
To read your mind
But do they really know
How it really feels?

So terrible,
So lonely,
Not in the mood
Not in this world.

I'm nowhere
I'm on air
I'm going nowhere
As I've got no air.

No air to breathe
No more oxygen left
No more life in my body
Only a soul seeking another.

Song after another
Accompanying my feelings
Lifting my spirit
Bit by bit to a beat.

Music of my life
So much influence
Yet staying true
To my own self.

I wanna sing
But i have no voice
I wanna learn
But i have no one.

I wanna dance
But i can't keep up
I wanna learn
But I have no time.

Music of my life
No singing
No dancing
Just listen...

Listen to that beat
Listen to that rhythm
Follow the beat
Of every rhythm

Sing to your own tune
Dance to your own feel
Join me in my world
And listen to my music.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Second Chance

My wish has been granted
I am given a second chance
My prayers answered
I will surely change.

I've promised to
A promise
I never want to break
A chance I'll never miss

I'll follow all rules
I'll never break a regulation
I promise I'll be good
And will always be as now

I'll keep my nose clean
I'll make it shine all year
I'll never be bad no more
I'll make it to santa's list this year

I'm appreciating the freedom
The freedom i once took for granted
Always better now than before
Better little than never at all

I'm earning the trust
I'm earning the respect
Give me time
I'll prove you I can

I deserve my education
I deserve to be better
I thank you for believing
I thank you for giving me a chance

I've learnt the harder way
I've cope with all waves
I'm still standing here
With all the love I have

I will never repeat
The mistake I once did
I've learnt I really have
The mistake I won't do again.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Me

I was afraid yet tough
I was confused yet collected
I was full of fear yet full of terror
I was forced to make up my stories.

I tell people my life
A life I so wanted
I made it sounded true
For all I know, it never did exist.

I know I had a future
A future that was crushed
In a moment of influence
For that I hate myself so much.

I am not a perfect person
I made a lot of mistakes
From most I have yet to learn
For I never knew what it really mean.

Learn from your mistake,That is
But noone ever taught me how
I couldn't even identify my mistake
What more to learn from them.

I grew up now I know so much
I have to accept that I'm no perfect person
But full of mistakes to be learnt
Nothing wrong is doing them, Just keep learning.

I'm given a second chance
Now and for all
I wanted to prove I can
And I am doing now

I've got everything coming
I've got nothing to lose
I'll never screw up this time
Never in this period.

I'm going to make mama proud
I'm going to make daddy happy
I'm going to make up for everything
For everything is what I've got.

I'm going to make amends
I'm going to walk across that desert
I'm going to swim across that ocean
I'm going to be the best anyone can have.

Look at me, folks.
I can be your number one
I can be the best
And I believe so.

Believe me, folks
Trust me on this
I shall never take
This chance for granted ever

Thank you, lord
For giving me this chance
This opportunity so great
I can never repay.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Changes

I watched silently,
The everchanging clouds
As the sunsets peacefully,
The orange filled the sky

As time pass,
Orange changes
To a darker shade
And turned to purple.

The sky got darker,
But the sun brings out the moon
To shower the Earth with moonlight
To let the skies have skyful of twinkles

I sat down by the waves,
Awaiting for sunrise after the sunset
Awaiting for time to change its course
For day become night and night awaits day.

Everything changes..
You, Me, Everyone...
With no time to waste
For time waits for no man

I keep saying,
I got to go,
Yet I stayed
For you to bid goodbye

A goodbye so long
A farewell to hard to say
I can't let go
Someone like you

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Life BooK

Wind blowing the pages,
The pages of my life,
Open and left to be read,
Read and you'll know.

You'll know every word,
Is the truth from my heart,
My heart with broken pieces,
Broken all the time but fixed once.

That one fix that made me,
So different but the same.
The same attitude, the same me,
But with a purpose to be claimed.

My book of life
Not many pages
Yet so important
Please read and you'll know.

Pass the book around
Let people write about you
From a different perspective
From a different view of someone.

That book will have more pages,
All about you, me and everyone.
You'll know you more than anyone
And you'll know everyone plays a part.

Life is unfair as it had always been
Your existence based on two person
Without one you're nobody alive
Be grateful for your own like noone would

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Someone I know

A cry for silence,
A silence of revenge
A revenge over myself
To a friend I called foe.

A foe I had once called a friend
Who had tested my patience,
Who got over the thin line
Who had me raging in anger

The anger that was over jealousy
The jealousy that tore our friendship apart
The friendship with no trust
The friendship with no joy for each other.

I cry in a moment of silence,
I got stabbed at my back
I turned to see that face of yours
So full of satisfaction with no regrets.

I couldn't believe my eyes,
A friend became a foe.
In a matter of time,
Just because of jealousy.

I am now no more
But memories haunted you
Every night, you can't breathe
You can't sleep in peace no more.

Sorry to have done that
But I wasn't the one
With decisions of your life
You made a choice to kill me.

The tear in your eyes,
The fear in your soul,
Find forgiveness my friend,
For your peace lies within.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

4 walls, 2 gates

4 walls that sees and hears,
The stories of histories,
Stories of heroism,
And stories of love.

I'm lost in this 4 walls,
With 2 gates of no escape
I sat by the corner
Awaiting myself to be called.

I have no name no more,
I am a number, a something,
I have no choice, no opinions,
I follow all rules that makes no sense.

Keeping my head lowered
With eyes on the ground
No voice of expressions
I move with limited permission
Of a complete stranger.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Our WorlD

We came from different world,
We are of different race,
Of different colour, different religion,
Yet we met by destiny and by fate.

We made a world of our own,
Neither to be called mine nor yours,
But ours and ours alone
Proud of each other forever.

A place we create
Where friendship kindles with love
Where love continue to grow
With no boundaries in between us.

I love you for you,
Not your money,
Not your status,
But you for who you are.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Me To You

If today is my last
and tomorrow is never,
I would join you in bed,
To hug and kiss you better.

I would admire your smile,
And see your every move,
To smile and laugh with you,
And say the best I Love you .

I would tell you,
How much you mean to me
I want you to know
that you are my everything

I would tell you,
How much I appreciate
Those little things you gave
And those gestures done by you for me.

If I am granted more time,
I would show you everything
That you never knew about me
And tell you my deepest secret ever.

I would do anything for you,
Even more than you'd expect me to,
And I'd show you in everyway, every second,
That You're truly everything to me...

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Forgive me

Overwhelmed with fuming anger
Pissed with all the bad luck I've got
Cursed by someone out there
But why me? Why am i in such a fate tonight?
My share of bad luck is too big a bite for me...

Forgive my sins, oh lord...
Please, I begged of you...
Stop torturing me like this..
I can't take it anymore!

Oh, darling...
Make my day..
Help me forget the worries
Help me forgo all the problems
Allow me to scream my insecurities away...

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Child Abuse

How have a little child wronged you
That you touched her wrong and
Beat him hard with powerful blows?

The children is your blood and flesh!
How can you have the heart to hurt
Them more than what they could handle?

What kind of a person are you
To not spare your children's life
After her crying and his pleas?

All he wants is attention
All she wants is your love
Is it really too much to ask??

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Your pain, my joy.

My blood is boiling inside,
I'm going to erupt real soon,
The hot steam finding a way out.

I felt my hand lifting up,
Awaiting a victim to punch,
To let go of a powerful blow.

My face turning red,
I might be small and quiet,
But never too tiny to express.

The fear that enveloped you,
Is the first step to my victory,
The blood dripping from your mouth,
Is never the pain but my fullest satisfaction.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Me and You

I've been waiting for you,
A deep desire to be yours,
I surrender to your every need,
I'm thristy for more of your touch.

Your body against mine,
Your lips tickling my ears,
Feeling your heart beat fast,
Feeling your soul searching mine.

My body entangled in yours,
Feeling the body heat from you,
My legs hugging you close and tight,
I have the urge to be even closer to you.

I can't seem to get enough,
I don't seem to have enough,
I wanted more that what I have,
You and me alone in a world I have.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts