The girl

She was sitting all alone,
Just she and her lunchbox,
No one dared to be close to her,
For the curse she has brought.

The curse of a witch,
Horribly casted on her,
For the sin her parents did,
She was left alone without reason.

I tried to befriend her,
Yet she kept me away,
Afraid of the jinx she may pass,
I dry her tears and hugged her tight.

I couldn't bear to see,
Her sufferings she don't deserve,
The pain I could feel deep inside,
The scar so painfully ugly hurts too much.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Lost

Yet again,
I've lost myself,
Someone took her,
So far away silently.

Everything,
It seemed to fall apart,
So hard to pick it up,
It hurts to see it breaks.

Yet again,
I'm broken and hurt,
Once again I'm alone,
To do this piece again.

Everything,
It seemed to backfire,
So hard to defend,
It hurts to get critics.

Yet again,
I'm cursed,
To the bones,
To my heart.

Everything,
It seemed so hurtful,
I can't bear any longer,
I can't stand it no more.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Searching...

I've searched,
Yet still unfound,
It's right here,
Somewhere hiding.

In midst of my searching,
I forgot what I'm looking for,
Is it the wealth of happiness,
Or is it the happiness in wealth?

My thoughts played with my mind,
In the midst of this process,
I thought I found it alas,
But my mind went blank.

I forgot again,
Memory lost,
Files deleted,
Brain crashed.

I question myself again,
What am I looking for,
The love of my life,
Or my life with love?

Connection failed,
I tried refreshing it,
But it stubbornly refuse,
Leaving me irritated.

I stood up,
Walked away,
Another failed search,
Looked for a new spot.

Back to where I start,
I am searching still,
For something undefined,
For something already mine.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Bad Habit

I inhaled,
A long drag,
And blow it out,
All white foggy mist.

Can do without,
But chose not to,
With no apparent reason,
I became addicted.

Can stop,
Yet not close,
Tried but never,
It feels me up.

Contented,
Yet guilty,
I inhaled another,
And blow it all out.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Sacrified

You call me a friend,
Yet you never honour me,
I've pawned my life to fend,
Yet you simply walked away.

Is that a way,
You repay me,
By leaving me stray?
You've just betrayed me.

Time never heals,
The sacrifies I did,
Left to be forgotten,
Is that what I deserve?

I may forgive,
But how can I?
My life at stake,
And you laughed.

It hurts me,
To have you,
Calling me a friend,
Sacrificing like a slave.

You made me bleed,
And you simply turned away,
Which part of my sacrifices,
Is a sin that I've done to you?

A friend you are,
An enemy you define,
I am dying,
And made you smile.

What more do you want,
I've given all,
Just to have you asking more,
What a friend you are.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Memories

Memories,
They stayed,
To keep the smile,
Or to haunt all night.
I wanted it to leave,
But it keeps coming,
Today's yesterdays,
Yesterday last year,
It seemed so long,
Yet so fresh today,
I want less,
Yearn for more.

Memories,
It keeps growing,
New never kills the old,
The wound never heals,
The scar scare me,
It keeps bleeding,
Time and again,
The new relives the old,
New wound come to stay,
It pains me to heal,
For there's no end.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Slave

I am,
If you say,
I will be,
If you want.

Rest,
If you allow,
At standby,
If you need.

Your command,
Is my duty,
Your wish,
Is my honour to keep.

My heart,
Is yours to keep,
My soul,
Is in your hands.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts