What should I do?

My head pounding,
My mind blowing up,
I can't stand this making,
I feel like giving everything up!

But I can't give up,
I can't lose the battle,
I'm not allowed to even win,
What should I do?

My eyes are closing,
I can't force it open,
I'm going to sleep,
A deep sleep that never ends.

I never want to wake up,
The alarm to loud,
It shook me off the bed,
I don't wanna wake up.

I can't stand,
I can't sit either.
I can't breathe,
I can't stop either.

I'm lost,
Who am I?
What should I do?
Where am I going?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts