Proof to be proven

I was left,
Stranded in tears,
All alone in this world,
Never to hear from you.

I tried calling you,
I yearn for that voice,
I tried to get any chance,
Just to meet you once more.

Failed attempts,
One after another,
Greeted me with pain,
So hard for me to endure.

I found someone new,
He was marvellously great,
Deep inside I still yearn for you,
Just the deepest instinct of emotions.

I knew we would meet,
Someday sometime someplace,
Indeed we did but with no words,
Just the look so full of fear to lose.

I found you again,
Indeed I did search,
It hadn't failed me yet,
At least I've done my part.

I believe in fate,
For it brought us,
To meet and be together,
More than I ever thought.

I had loved you,
And I always had,
If only I knew you do,
I'd have done so much more.

I had you in mind,
The moment you left,
I had you in my dreams,
The moment I fall asleep.

The time has come,
We are back in action,
Let us prove ourselves,
That love and fate brings joy.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Morning Sunshine

The stars disappear,
Beneath the dark skies,
As dawn start to prepare,
The dark received the light.

The sun shines,
With bright smiles,
Outburst its golden rays,
To brighten those lives on stray.

The morning sun,
Extract the moisture out,
Making morning dews on leaves,
Evaporating them to fresh scent of air.

The scent of morning,
The scent of freshness,
The warmth from above,
The morning sunshine on me.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Tough

Heavy head,
Spinning top,
Love from hate,
Never to stop.

Am all ears,
With no fear,
All these years,
With no tears.

Why now,
Not later,
Or earlier,
For that matter?

Nothing,
Too bad,
Not a thing,
Can be this bad.

Tried,
Not enough,
Sick and tired,
It's really tough.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Nowhere, Everywhere

I feel so free, with no ties.
I am nowhere, everywhere...
I felt so threatened, with no shelter.
He who protected me, decided to kill me.

I'm on the air, with no warranty.
If I never survive, then I will die.
I felt so cheated, but i am obligated.
He who could stop my tears, made me cry.

I cried in anger, with streaming tears.
You did not get it, and you never will.
Here I am, trying so hard without you caring.
And there you are, enjoying and having a blast.

Right here, nowhere.
I stood alone, with all my will.
Down there, where you are.
With many, that never stays.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Trying

The tenderness inside,
Left untouched unknown,
By the rock hard surface outside,
Judged by the very first impressions.

Sad is life,
Cruel is world,
I took out a knife,
And tried to cut it raw.

Blood everywhere,
Felt no pain no more,
Frustrated is the word,
Bleeding a lot as I fought.

This is too much,
Taking its toll on me,
The only defenseless soul,
With nothing to compete for.

A step more I take,
A journey to nowhere,
An indefinite destination,
A period of time I sacrifice.

For experience sake,
I shall look down and move,
For the constant good cash flow,
I shall keep the steps going on and on.

I can't hear,
So I listened,
I can't take it,
So I gave it more.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

A piece of my busy mind

A piece of emotion,
Locked away deep inside,
Nowhere shall it go free,
Nowhere it shall be seen.

The line of pleasure,
The line of fantasies,
The thin line of tolerance,
The leeway I've provided.

A spark that spread fire,
So innocent so bare yet so powerful.
The reasoning of your explanations,
Bear no mercy no more.

I want you to burn,
Yet I can't see your pain,
I want you to go away,
Yet I can't stand alone.

I want you stay,
Yet I refuse to accept.
I want you to go,
Yet I didn't let go of my grip.

Why O why,
I wonder with no end,
It's so difficult to be sure,
I need to move on with no regrets.

Please oh Lord,
Show me some sign,
Who will be your choice,
For me to share my life with?

Tell me great Lord,
For only you know,
The carefully chosen one,
Picked and made for me.

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts

Love without trust

What is love,
Without any trust,
But with every doubt,
That you're not in his heart.

Where are you in his life,
When he never tells you anything,
What is it that he's hiding you asked,
But no answers, not even a clue from him.

What is happening?
Is there really a third person,
Between you and him in this love,
Or is it just the doubt in the absence of trust?

Will he be loyal and true?
While being apart for sometime?
Or will he find your replacement,
Where his heart holds a hole of loneliness?

Will you be able to stay true?
Telling him your every move?
Will you hang in there for his return,
Without any thought of any kind of failure?

What am I going to do,
If he found someone new?
What will become of me,
If I realised he's no longer mine?

What shall I do,
If I find him changed?
What am I to do,
If I am a different me?

Will he still be there,
Like I am still here for him?
Will there still be love without trust?
Or will this relationship without trust go bust?

-A piece of Junaidah's thoughts